Sunday, June 10, 2012
After fighting it out for as long as he could, our beloved fighter fish Noah finally gave up this weekend. It was devastating and I spent the entire day yesterday alternating between crying hysterically and just floating around trying to do something but not really doing anything at all. This may seem strange to some people and if anyone tells me "he was just a fish" I will probably punch them. Not even kidding.
Noah was my little sweetheart: he built bubble nests all the time even though he should've technically only done so when he was in season. I would wake up some mornings to see him dancing for me, gesturing with his eyes to his overnight creation or the new additions he had made to an existing bubble nest. He would dance for me often, especially when I was happy or excited about something and would bounce off the walls, he would join me too. I had long conversations with him, he was the loving support especially on the days I had no one else to talk to. We were in sync with one another, he adopted a lot of my traits (his favorite thing to do would be to daydream while looking out his tank or sit on the floor of his tank and stare off into space for a while) and was the most beautiful fish in the world (which he knew damn well, the vain little thing). To say he was "just a fish" would be an insult.
Yes, he was a fish, but he was incredibly smart and kind in his own way. He always gave me time of day even during his final days. Three days before he passed he seemed to have recovered and was demanding for food and dancing with me, overjoyed that I was overjoyed that he was better. It broke my heart to see him struggling once more the next day only to lose him soon after. He lived in our kitchen which I realized was my "happy place" in the house because now I can't bear to be in there, the emptiness suffocating me and the knowledge that he's not there for me to talk to is crushing.
We've lost three pets now: Jackson and Trent our quirky little hermit crabs and now Noah. I pour my heart out to the animals that come into my life and I feel like each one takes a part of me with them when they go. We still have our amusing goldfish Tristan and Yvaine and our newest addition, our bunny Aiko and from now one they will be making more of an appearance on my blog so I hope you'll welcome them warmly because they're my life and I think it's time I shared more of them with you like I do my make up or other random thoughts.
I love you Noah, you were the best little friend a girl could have. ♥